update
I've thought about changing to a google blog and naming it update. Because I can never think of subjects. And for some reason I like the look of the google blog. maybe I should change my look instead. We'll see what happens.

Sometimes I wish I had deep thoughts to put in this. The other day I was compemplating my seemingly lack of deepness. It is because I'm not deep, because I see stuff that goes on in life differently than others, or is it because my life really has been different? I guess that's a deep thought. But I'm not sure it counts. :)

Where does this all come from? Ben and I went to a small group at church that broke into groups of four to discuss the mini-message. (It felt like school. I hated breaking into groups.) And I was supposed to share my thoughts with four strangers. 1. I'm not sure I had time to process everything yet. (Would I process it? Sometimes. This could be a problem too, but a different one I guess.) 2. I sometimes feel ashamed of my life because I have been so blessed. Sure, there have been some minor down times and a few major down times, but really, nothing too bad. So when I'm asked to give an example of something in my life and I can't come up with one, is it my fault for not paying attention or not my fault because it just hasn't happened?